So, it’s official. Today was my last day as a high school student. It’s hard to believe that 13 years of school is over already. Where does the time go? (They say time flies when you’re having fun, but I highly doubt that that was why it went so fast.) Now comes the big leagues–college. I mean true, I have an exciting summer in store, or at least that’s the plan, but let’s be real; the idea of independence and living on my own is a tad bit exciting! ….And terrifying; let’s not forget anxiety-inducing, and boy does it make you feel old!
Really though-this time of year is just a big ball of emotions for everyone, especially us. How do you deal with a flurry of emotions that could challenge even the Snowpocalypse? That’s a question for you to answer on your own. In my case, choreographing and dancing, reading, and, of course, blogging.
Speaking of, this blog is supposed to be the journal, so-to-speak, of a girl who is a soon-to-be college girl. Collegette, if you will. So, how about we just go over some of the emotions I’m feeling and hope all you gals out there feel the same way? I’m sure it’s all totally normal. Right? Right?
Let’s start with the main one-EXCITEMENT. I want to shout it from the rooftops: Hello world! I am a college student now! No more dumb high school drama for me! I get to live my own life and do what I want! Of course it’s exciting, and if you aren’t even the tad bit excited…well, I’m sorry you don’t get this amazing feeling. It’s like something waiting just on the horizon. A Fresh Start.
Another big one-ANXIETY. Can I do this? Am I ready for life on my own? What if I don’t make it? What if I let everyone down? Getting ready to face life on your own is intimidating and scary. It can make you doubt yourself but it can also show you how independent you can be. Just remember to take a deep breath, and don’t let it absorb you. Turn all that doubt into excitement-trust me, it helps.
Most of the other emotions I have been feeling have been variations of these, but there is one other one that has really been hard-SADNESS. Don’t get me wrong; I am pumped for college, and ready for the change of scenery. But there’s also a bittersweet tinge. I am leaving behind friends, family, an amazing boyfriend, and childhood in general. I’m not truly leaving them behind-I’m only an hour or so away, and we will always be there for each other-but at the same time, I am moving on and starting a chapter of my own. I am no longer a character in someone else’s story. This is where life begins. And it does have its sad side, especially if you come from a close-knit family like mine.
We all go through some crazy emotions around this time, but ultimately they all pretty much fit into one of these three groups, and they are all completely normal. I promise. How are all you gals out there starting to feel about going to college? Let me know!:)